Hetepu Family. Greetings
Have you ever thought about why after 400+ years, people are still marching and demanding that they be set free? Well, as many of you know, I am the eldest son of a preacher who was groomed to be like my father. When I was growing up, the one thing I hated the most was when the adults who knew I was my father’s son would continue to comment and prophesied on how I would be a great preacher. Well, I proved them wrong by taking a completely alternative path to find God. When I look back at how I decided to take this path, it comes to me that I was motivated to rebel against the church primarily out spite.
Unfortunately, because I spiritually left the church for the wrong reasons, even though I didn’t physically attend church, spiritually I was still a member. You see, I still attended church spiritually because I still believed in the existence of a devil or some evil force that existed outside of me. I remember when I was attending PVA&MU and was coming into the knowledge of self, I didn’t necessarily call this evil force the devil but I referred to it as different names depending upon one mode of thinking and who I was with. When I changed my diet and adopted a vegetarian lifestyle this evil force was everything that was not vegan including the entire healthcare system. When I was dealing with the Rasta I called this evil Babylon. When I got with the Five Percenters we called it the evil 10 %. When I was just kicking it and dealing with the family that knew about secret societies, we called this evil force the Masons and other secret societies, all while claiming that we were gods and goddesses.
Things changed when I got ill and had to focus on improving my health. It was during this period of my life I began to reevaluate all that I believed. One of the things I realized was that you can’t get healthy by focusing on illness. In order to recover from an illness you have to focus on perfect health and the things you would do, if you were perfectly healthy. It was this perspective that made see that everything happens for a reason and that from a holistic perspective, the purpose of illness is to reveal that there exists an imbalance.
Expounding upon this idea led me to see all of the fallacies of my beliefs and thinking. For instance, you can’t say that you are a god or goddess yet claim that there is a devil or some other evil force that exist and is out to get you. If you believe there is some evil force out to destroy you, then you are not a god or goddess, you are an angel opposing another angel, because technically speaking a God or Goddess has no equal called a devil. Just like illnesses or ill-nesses reveal that there is an imbalance, the purpose of the devil is to also to reveal the imbalances that exist within your soul.
When I made this discovery, it opened up the doors and led me to realize what some people might not want to hear but need to accept, that the devil is not some impish red-tailed, goat headed man running around tempting people to worship him and buy certain artists’ albums. No. The devil is within you – more specifically – it is your lower self, your subconscious self, or your ego self that has you living in the chains of fear. It is that energy that makes you afraid to use the “Lord’s Name in vain” out of fear that you will be struck down. It is that energy that makes you afraid to admit to your loved ones why you don’t go to church, to the temple or to the mosques. That’s right, the devil is that energy that has you believing in the boogey man and romanticizing traditional African culture by claiming to accept everything Kamitic but refusing to embrace the Yoruba, Fon and other traditional African cultures because they honor their ancestors and worship so-called deities. You’re afraid to talk about anything magical and metaphysical because it is too close to Vodou/Voodoo. You will salute and honor the ancestral traditions of others, but for some odd reason refuse to acknowledge your own. That’s right; meet your devil, the one that keeps telling you that your ancestors were all forced to accept Christianity, instead of acknowledging that many of them willingly converted to it. Yes, it is Fear.
Understand if you feel that you can’t do something because something bad is going to happen to you by you doing it with no true knowledge of it. You are essentially enslaved by fear.
It is a hard pill to swallow. I know it is but I got tired of living in fear and doing things that I didn’t agree with or weren’t going to help me. Once I decided to face my devil and ask the real reason why I left the church, I learned that it wasn’t because I did not like the prophesizing, but I had a real fear of the unknown. In my eyes, God had a bad habit of doing things just for the fun of it like the wager that was made between him and the devil. When I was younger and we would visit smaller churches around Detroit, I saw numerous struggling storefront preachers and it always made me wonder if God was just testing them. I refused to be put in that situation where I had to live on faith and that’s the real reason why I left. As soon as I acknowledged that, a mental wall came crumbling down and I found the book Conjuring Culture: Biblical Formations of Black America by Theophus H. Smith, which revealed that many of our ancestors understood the nature of their spirit (superconscious self), so they used the King James Bible as conjuring book – that is a book used to program their spirit self (subconscious and superconscious self). This is because they understood (even if they weren’t able to explain it metaphysically or psychologically) that the devil was within them. This is why many of the elders would read in the evening the Book of Proverbs. Most of our elders all knew the 23rd Psalms and most likely made you to remember it as well or some other Psalms along with it.
What many people need to understand is that the greatest atrocity that occurred due to slavery was convincing people that they were not already free, in other words gods and goddesses free to do whatsoever we willed. Many of our ancestors were aware of this which is why fictional or not, the biblical Moses became a spirit guide, an African American archetype and role model known as the great conjureman of the bible, who inspired the likes of Harriet Tubman and Dr. King.
The point of this discourse is to help you to see that if you believe that the devil or some other evil force is out to get you, then you will see the bible and other holy books as being sacred books (or not) containing silly texts, used to save you from some evil and alien force that you fear. And, unfortunately, that which you fear will only become stronger in your life. For instance, if you believe it is the devil, then devil will exist. If you changed your diet out of fear becoming ill., guess what? You will eventually become ill because what you are focusing on what you don’t want to happen. It’s Murphy’s Law or the nature of the Spirit (See Maa).
If however, you accept that the only devil that exists in your life is that which you fear, and that fear exists only to reveal an imbalance. Then you will see all texts as tools for tapping into your higher superconscious self in order to get what you want. For instance, instead of focusing on not getting diabetes, hypertension, etc. you focus on perfect health or maintaining perfect health. Consequently, you get perfect health. You see, when a god or goddess understands that the devil is within them and it is their lower self they have to resist. When he or she says, “The Lord is my shepherd”, they know they are talking about their higher superconscious self, personified as Osar (Asar, Ausar, Osiris) within them who will guide them and give them the solution through supernatural means to overcome any obstacle as he had done his son Hru (Heru, Horus). You won’t care if certain characters in the bible or other holy books are real or not.
Not only that, you won’t care about a lot of things. Not that it isn’t important but as a god or goddess you know that you create your own reality through your own beliefs. You are conscientious about your spirit and understand that all spiritual texts was specifically written to free your spirit.
Hope that helps. Peace